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I can't believe it's been a month since my last update. Time sure does fly!
I had a mini meltdown the weekend before Thanksgiving that resulted in some tears and much-needed conversation between me and my family. In short, I was feeling unloved and lonely. Those are the feelings I've struggled with the most in my life. Having a few years of therapy has helped tremendously and I've gotten much better at asking for things or seeking out the things I feel I'm lacking. That weekend though I failed miserably. I told my family I wouldn't be spending Thanksgiving with them after all because I felt so pushed down on everyone else's priority list. I was fed up with feeling that way.
Long story short, I had a talk with each of my family members and - on my end at least - things feel settled.
Thanksgiving did turn out to be really good. I did visit my family for a short while that morning, and then had lunch on Hubby's side of the family. The best part of the day was that I got to see both of my brothers and my parents as well as Hubby's side of the family. To me, family is extremely important and I would give up almost anything to preserve that bond.
That is part of the reason I think this time of year is a struggle for me emotionally. People get so busy and so obsessed with buying things. I continue to be amazed at the amount of stuff that gets exchanged. Life is not about stuff. I have stuff, and I continue to buy stuff, but my life has never been about acquiring more stuff. I would freely give this all up if it meant having a better, closer relationship with my friends and family.
This is what has been on my mind lately and (as usual) our church sermon was incredibly timely. This is a must listen, particularly at this time of year: Grace Creates Unity.