I've been mud wrestling . . . with myself that is.
It may be time to write up some new goals with time lines. I just can't seem to get a good focus on my life right now. Maybe I'm way overthinking this. Please share your thoughts/comments with me. I could really use them right now.
We have some heavyweight contenders in the ring:
Scrapping - Love my review team work with ScrapFriends, love scrapping, still have free time to just play. Have been entering monthly contests. Belong to a kit club. Fallen in love with October Afternoon and am considering applying for their design team. Have been wanting to be on a mfg. design team for a long time.
Writing - Want to do more of it, need to do it more regularly. Try to establish a daily routine of writing even if it's only for 15 minutes. Would like to finish a novel and try to get it published. Receive a lot of praise here.
Family - This is what really makes me feel unfocused. Not sure why. I spend time with my family and still have time to do my own thing, but if I join another design team how will that change? Hubby will be starting school next month so it'll be just me and the kids three nights a week. More opportunity to scrap on those nights.
What should I do, should I apply for the October Afternoon design team? It feels like too good of an opportunity to not at least try for. Should I keep my scrapping at the level it is at now and focus more on writing? Or should I do all three?
I do have to say I'm a person who works well with structure and keeping busy. I love so much, and seriously mean it when I say I wish I didn't have to sleep. Debating on how busy to be, I'm thinking "Hey, you only live once! Might as well live it to your fullest!
So, I'm thinking apply for the design team. I may not even get an offer - actually, I likely won't get an offer, but hey, I can dream! Please give me your thoughts.
(Now after reading all of this you probably think I'm over-analyzing everything. I agree, but that's just me. Totally focused and serious at some times, and playful and creative at others. Welcome to my cerebral jungle gym!)
4 comments:
Penny,
That’s the dilemma we all face to some degree. It’s hard to balance personal goals along with those of your family. It’s also difficult to achieve satisfaction within so many goals. I think you will have to spell out your expectations for each goal clearly and not try to expand too far beyond those expectations or your other goals will suffer. To draw a parallel: in my training I have decided not to try to be competitive with my running and concentrate my competitive-ness on my riding. It’s hard for me because I am very competitive overall (especially with myself). I think you (like me) expect a certain standard from yourself within each of your areas of interest. For that standard to be met, there is time commitment. I think clear goals and expectations, time management and attention to detail will be key factors. You have the talent to make it work. I'll be rooting for you!
Penny, I say go for it, try out for the DT. It sounds like you really want to do this, and if it does happen, you will find in the time for the submissions. Good luck with that decision, it is a hard one.
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Karen
I am trying to figure out how to balance my life and still "go for" those things I really want. I did hear that to have a balanced life you have to sacrifice a period of time where you are changing and everything is out of balance. With that, I say try out for the DT and good luck!!
Hey Penny,
I was so behind on your blog, I couldn't believe it. So in my reading, I decided this is the post I needed to respond to...I am right there with you, girlfriend! I love your visual of mental mudwrestling. That is exactly how I feel. I'm glad you tried for the OA design team (and I'm sorry it didn't work out). Never doubt your talent, both in scrapping and in writing. We definitely need to get together - maybe even a walk and talk during your lunch time.
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